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Terfikir kat diee tuuuu haaiiizzz


takley peluk laki....peluk la bantal...hik hik :(

"Actually wat happen?....U mcm sedih je...?" dat voice keeps coming back in my head. Tau jugak die aku ngah sedih.....Tapi soalan tuu tak boleh ku menjawab...entah la mengapa...U should noe la hu u are oso...cuz u only said/asked me it recently.

Suaramu tak bisa ku lupakan...Walaupun ku sedih tapi suaramu itu lah yang memberi ku semangat untuk meneruskan hidup. Hearing your voice is almost equivalent to me having a massage...Its like all my worries, my problems juz seem to disappear. The feeling is so undescribable and it just calms and soothes my feeling. How I wish I can hear that voice daily....but too bad we have our own agendas. You ngan hidup you...I ngan hidup I....Untuk you...gunung pown I sanggup carikkan....I sanggup tunggu you sampai you habis keje....question is..sanggup ke you layan I?...Telarat ke you layan I lepas you abis keje?...

Maafkanlah jika menggangu...
Tapi sampai bilakah harus ku menunggu...
Kemana arah hendak ku tuju...
Bila hatiku rindu padamu...


Haiz...gille kape aku ni....asyik terfikir kat die je.....tah die terfikir kat aku ke tidak...?!?!


Everywhere I turn...everywhere I go...semua orang...sedang mengalami kesusahan dalam hal2 "CINTA"... Yes love is not alwayz a bed of roses...alwayz ups and downs...well mine...I juz only had the "mother and daughter talk AGAIN"...

Mom : Adikkk lekas2 la kau abis Uni n gi la keje...ha ahh berambos!

Me : Yea naah I plan 2 get married at 22/23...bila dah bagi u duit nanti...bley la I kawin...sebab KATEKANLAH...kekasih adik ni 7 years apart..siaak kawen lambat rugi!

Mom : no...no 25 den can..

Me : *tinks in my head..* "siaakkk KALAU la aku ngan zhi until later on aku 25 die dah 32...siaakkk mak bapak..dah tua nak mampos!...".....Ma say la if my age gap ngan my mamat is 7 years like u and dad siaakkk he'll be 32!!! 32 dah tak ley nak buat ape...LOL...

Mom : noo 32 is fine laaa...aiyoo...jangan nak mengatal...habiskan skolah dulu...

Me : *tinks in my head..* "Iye la but tink practically...DAT TOPIC has 2 be addressed SOONER or LATER kan!".....But I juz diamkan...

And tadi ade guest came over my house...topic between dem n my mom was "marriage!" Shuddap I was earsdropping! Yeah...ok den came da topic...but 1 ting I hate...dis lady said..." Kalau kawen ngan orang...MUSLIM...kan senang..50% of marriage burden dah lepas..."...

Den came the tattoo topic...siakkkkkkkkkkkkkk....I berdidi situ terpegun....bile topic tu masok je...I pown kuar action dengar...den I masok la campur...I said..."ala mak cik orang2 kat singapore tuuu nampak je melayu2 alim...tapi skang seme bercap badan...tattoo sane tattoo sini...and plus bukan tak ley kawen ngan orang bertattoo...kalau die dah masok Islam and dah insaf....tak salah..."...

But she ouh iye....mak cik ingat nak hantarkan anak2 mak cik balik singapore..at least ade agama...inside my heart im like ler....selenger...den I said.." ala mak cik lau dah kawen tu...kalau either the wife or the husband guides the other insyallah...should be no problem."....my mom diamkan je........

Haiz....my mind racing....terfikir kat si gemuk tu...entah la....mcm maner...tapi I tak henti2 mendoakan die...insyallah tuhan tunjjuk kan die jalan yang lurus. I pown tak tau la nak kate ape...lame dah I pendam....entah mcm mane nak akap kat die..hati I baik tak nak sakit kan hati die....entah la...kalau ade ade la...lau tak de pown tak pe....kite hanya boleh merancang tapi tuhan yang menentukan...