_ 11/02/11 _

11/02/11 --> Thursdae

Hmmm I couldnt sleep da whole nite since I got home from work dis morning... been crying all nite long n tinking about Zoro...Duno if I can cope without him aye.. :( I really really dun wana leave him tho..I duno juz sth about him...yeah n so much fo him saying "pls pls dont leave me"...PFFFTT!...Anyway was sick n tired of cryin all nite n I tink he passed out while waiting fo me till I came home...So I rang him at 0630! Surprisingly he answered afta a few calls...n admitted dat he passed out aye. Hmm I told him dat I couldnt sleep...n so his suggestion was dat I come ova his house..I thot about it fo a sec n went out...saw mom left me a note more like a list of things fo me to do..so I told him Id do dat 1st den go 2 his.. which I did :)

Got 2 his n juz chilled out in bed aye..apparently he was supposed 2 attend dis manageral meeting fo work as well n he forgot about it..n dey told him 2 not worry about comming no more..n yea so we chilled out fo abit more..kinda nice..cuz no1 was at his house..just d two of us like it was our own house :) Yea n we played street fighter fo abit as well..n he kicked my ARSE..haha but it was fun..then yeah had a lil shower tgt n off 2 work :(

I was 2 hrs early so I went 2 grab sth 2 eat at foodcourt. And I bumped in2 his fwend. Ended up following him 2 cut his hair n den hang out with him in da car while he was drinking..Hmm..I had a bad feeling about it..cuz sum parts I felt weird the way he was touching me n tickling me n stuff..I felt like it was too friendly. :S And at work I felt kinda left out cuz dis otha fella at work hu absolutely hates me..( I shall call him Timberlake) ..Yea he was just in our way.. n watching us n shyit.. so yeah :( n then on d way home..I kinda felt Zoro distance himself from me..n I really wanted 2 talk..but he just dropped me off n didnt say anything :(

So when I finally reached home we talked on da fone as usual n he then explained 2 me wat was wrong..he was just worried 4 me..how I was hanging out wit his fwends..n the actions I do...he gave me like a whole lecture..which was gud..made me realise...the gud n bad side of things...n the things dat he has done 4 me...how he went a long way just 2 help me out at work n stuffs. ..n so d last thing I asked was.."wat u mean by call it off 4 abit?...cuz 2 me..if we totally call it off...I feel like there's a hole in my life..have 2 do things all by myself..no more buying extra food..or extra wateva.." And I told him to please not talk in poems n riddles just go straight 2 d point..and so he said "just END IT!"... there u go...well yeah Im fine wit dat..up 2 u la..juz why cant u say it b4 b4....n stop fucking wit my head?!..N I tink I was so pissed off I just yeah said I wana go 2 bed :(