_ 21/02/09 _

21/02/09
Saturdae...well I woke up like at noon..haha anak dara malas?!..Diam!...lol...mama teriak "SHARIFAH NAzREEN...bangun!!!! NOOOOWWW!!"...1st ting I was like babi tul ary abtu pown xley tito lambat! Den papa plak akap "semalam kau tito kul berape?" I akap la lepas mandi mamam pastu troz tito...papa akap more den 12 hrs..2 bukan ape name MALAS...den I masok toilet bisik2 BABIII...BABI..LOL...aku penat je dah la thursdae kayaking den balik rush..semalam balik troz gosok pastu rush lagi gi main badminton..ape sey dorang no consideration! Ish2....hmm past mandi mama suruh kemas bilik tukar bedsheet...lap meja...vacuum...buat la semua 2 dah kul 1600...pastu I masok bilik bace buku cite..I masih cedih ni...haizz...

Sumpah I xley nak buat ape setiap bende I buat setiap kali I hayal mesti terkenang zhi atau Shah...more on Shah ar.. haiz...I cube nak lupekan dorang tapi xley...adoii n setiap kali I teringat...I nangis...haiz....kenape la I tak dapat kebahgiaan...orang lain seme senang2 je aku....dari kecik sampai la ke besar...mcm siot je..

Pastu I ngah la bace buku cite melayu ni...watak dalam buku 2 pown bernama SHAH..I was like eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Shah Shah Shah!!! DIAMMMMM...Syaitan goda tau!!! da zikir banyak2 pown...Astagfirullah...xmao hilang2...So I mesg la my bro...(Hafiz ar)...he gimme his nasihat...ok la...pastu...kuar jap mamam ice cream teman dad kat garage sambil die basuh kereta dier..I duduk kat tepi menyangkung sambil mamam... Pastu dad tuka baju die akap die nak gi mancing ngan mama...bagus la...I pown nak main HS5 kan..lepas dorang pegi je ape lagi on ar....

Den nenok2 DikwAn ade..I PM dier xbalas..bace card die..die ngan IKA semula...adoiii T_____T hancur aty ku...actually I dah terasa...kite dua dah couple cerai couple cerai kat 4x dah...tapi kali ini kite 2gether..mcm xde feeling..n den I mesg encet die pown xbalas...I call pown selalu lau IKA tefone die suruh I tunggu lau I call n dier ngah akap ngan IKA die tak suruh I tunggu....I tau la sebab line die busy. Ape lah nasib I...pastu I akap ngan member I minah ni la...die akap ok2..bia die nak siasat...

Mase die siasat..ade la mamat lain ni teguh aku...HAH..I pown layankan..I akap..ni lagi satu...nasib I tahan je marah I 2..sebab I zikir banyak2..lau tak dier pown I dah blasar..cian die lak..haha..den die ngah duk bawah pokok seblah masen air 2..I pown buat lawak..akap I nak kirim ice milo...haha...dier balas akap.."bley2...tapi mesen ni makan duit je..." den dier akap dier afk jap. OK la n I add dier as kawan.

Back 2 my problem kawan I tanye "u tau tak dorang 2 dah couple in real pown.."..I akap I tanye wan die akap tak...sebab only IKA yang proclaimed it..like so TRY HARD gitu..wat a bitch la...Den skang baru wan nak teroz terang akap ngan kawan I..."iye kite btul2 cple...I xmao btau Nazy sebab I kesihan n sebe salah"..I swear in my heart I was like GET FUCKED laaa...PENIPU.... PEMBOHONG..CIS...punye la sakit aty aku...troz I nangis sial... Da la I rindu kan zhi ngan shah.. abis wan pown buat mcm 2 kat I...

zhi well...I ngan dier xley ar sebab :
1. Dier ade tatoo...banyak sangat..nanti mama I confirm akap xmao...
2. Sebab mase 2 i ade masalah ngan tefone...mase mama I marah 2..n I xmao die tunggu lame2 n mengharap sesuatu...he also has feelings...lebih baik dier cari minah lain kan dari wasting time ngan aku...
3. He is a nice boi la...malay mix chinese..bley akap melayu..best...tapi nak buat mcm ne kan...

Shah...I xley ngan dier sebab..
1. He already has a girlfriend..n cant seem 2 make up his fucking mind between me or his girlfriend..
2. He just left me like dat...I call..I mesg I email seme dier xmao balas..ok la..
3. Another LIER! He used 2 promise n say all cute nice things about "us" but den buat mcm 2 ngan I...sape xsakit aty seyy...

N den da abis siasat problem I...mamat 2..namer dier ape ek..Azrin xsalah I..lupe dah..haha..aah die ajak lepak..ok la kite lepak bawah pokok kat kusi..I duk atas pangku die...Lagi I nangis...I remember..I duk mcm 2 ngan wan..I duk mcm 2 ngan Shah..1st thing he's a photographer...haha...2nd thing..22yrs old..I TINK..preety sure ar..(lol same age as my kor..my real brother)..haha..3rd thing he rokok..same as Shah n zhi..haha...

Den he said..I ni..pemalu..LOL adoiii cute gille zhi used 2 say dat 2 me..mase ngah nangis troz gelak siot!..lol..n den he ask 4 my myspace n friendster..LOL dat idiot understands ENGLISH!...eeeee malunye he went straight 2 my blog!..lol eee malunye..haha...Last but not least..I had 2 go anyway.. n he said.."dah maghrib pown..."(Opposite 2 Shah)...LOL Shah..well die brought up as alim family..tapi die cume malas smayang..haha..at least dis mamat smayang lau tak semua waktu pown...HE SAID DAH MAGHRIB..im guessing he gona pray since I said I gtg anyway...

Afta I tutup...I duno ar should I layan him? Should I not? Really ar Im nort ready 4 another heartbreak...I mean as kawan I sayang semua orang I tak pilih kasih...u all should noe me by now...Haiz duno la...same age as my kor..I had a 23 yr old b4..a 21 yr old b4..now a 22 yrs old..hmm...LOL..but if he treats me like a kid..which I absolutely hate...juz cuz im 17 dosent mean Im STUPID!..

Ouh ya 4got 2 tell u..I met another new friend named HAFIz also...but he's 18 yrs old..he's ok la nice n all..but he's 18 yrs old...I 18 yrs old usually blum nak mature la..I had experience..from Alif..Alip Singapore.. actually both Alif I tau dua2 18yrs old..n both 18 oso n den dey both soo immature...well he ady has a couple at HS5 la. Haha tapi suke kepit ngan aku..funny larh...I guess..he likes me?...Im like errr =.="..LOL..

But ya now im single back again kat HS5 in real pown single...cedih...I really regret migrating here...Not enuf mat2 melayu 2 hang out with not enuf malay chinese mix bois...boring siaaa....n I kesepiaan..kesunyiaan...N I have a question...

"Tiadakah SESEORANG yang mengerti dan memahami erti kasih sayang?!"