25/06/08Hmm thursdae....hehe was particularly looking 4ward 2 last session cuz like I have an appointement wid da chaplin..LOL...like soo many pple ask liao "DO U LIKE THE CHAPLIN?!" :O cmon la u all ar..woa lao..LOL...tapi I tak nafikan dat he is gud looking... and smart..lol..but student teacher relationship is nort allowed ar.. and he is soooo old 4 me la..he is like wat 27 lei! xiao.. Den doremon wan chuck where ar?!..LOLAnyway skool was fine..wagged last session 2 have my chaplin meeting with Zhen...and uhm time really flies wen ur having fun!....I had 2 leave him when it was 1415....cuz he has some random meeting so meh...Went home by myself 2dae by bus...cuz andri had soccer training?! So her dad only picks her up at like 1700..but nvm..ahakz..came home played audi..LOL as per usual larhs..hmmm den I went off at 1830 and talked 2 my audi cpl in bed...hmmm i tink about 1730 liddat doremon came online..OMG 1wk plus liao he nvr write 2 me or go on msn...lol miss him siak...LOL totally ignored every1 else..ahahkz..yeah hanged out wif him till about 2330...fun2..slept like a baby :) 26/06/09Hmmm fridae...well it was a normal dae larhs...skool was fine...hmmm was really looking 4ward 2 going home..but dreaded cuz like I lost my badge so I cant leave skool and didnt bring my leave pass..hmmm so I couldnt go home during lunch cuz Joyance lost her badge as well..PRISCILLA didnt wana lend her badge...so mean....she proclaimed dat I keep loosing her things =.=" wen the fuck have I last pinjam her stuff...LIKE 3 yrs ago..woa lao..so I only went home at 1345 wen afta lunch there was no lao shi( teacher ) on duty.Hmmm but last session was Health Studies...had 2 go through a trail run of my presentation 4 tuesdae...hmm...the things me n my group ordered still didnt come had 2 ring the company 4 times...screamed my balls off cuz dey said dey 4got about it!..so dey said dey promised mondae dey send it..hahakz..anyway I is sooo sad...I urh dropped my fone 10 times or more in my last class..put in my jacket..kept dropping..KANASAI...den really the button spoil again :'( 2 repair is another $100?!?!...T____T hmm...Came home early an hr early...played audi till mom got home...SIAN...lose2...my audi cpl not arnd...den played again at 2100+ till 0030!..OMG I really emo..LOSE2....eee...where was sis wen I nid her :( in da end decided 2 watch twilight...den waited 4 doremon till 3am? he wasnt there..den slept.
27/06/09Hmm woke up at 8am? to iron the clothes..den the dishes! KANASAI I like slave liddat...den went on msn on pc...waited awhile....doremon was there...YAYY...lol...talked 2 him on msn 4 like 4hrs?!..LOL all the way till almost 1345..shiok..mom n dad didnt care...ahaha..cuz the housework done ma...den I also had a chance 2 talk 2 doremon on the fone :) 5mins only cuz his mom wanted 2 use the home fone...but can oso la...been longging 2 hear his cute voice...I juz MELTED..lol his voice 2 cute la...Preety happy about our convo..he's improving...he's more supportive and changing topic also not alwayz about u noe wat...so Im very pleased...den at 1400 he had 2 go work so we both went 2 shower about 1330..hehe...den after shower I had lunch with whole family...den I decided 2 play AUDITIONSEA since my parents went out 4 afternoon shopping!..still quite depressing cuz no1 was arnd...audition cpl oso not arnd..so ya...emo and sis was not arnd!! MAJOR SADNESS...den went off..Went on msn...10mins about 1840? Doremon was online again..ahah..shiok...he pei me till I slept at about 1am?!..lol it was awwsum ar...we webcam n talked n joke...I slept like a baby smiling......love him lots..:) I guess u can say we back 2getha now? DUno la..wateva da prob is or WAS...we gona sort it out :)
23/06/09hmmm Tuesdae...normal...la..BUT I was damn blur siak....I set my alarm at 3...was supposed 2 finish some random homework...den I was 2 tired...so I slept back...LOL den got up again at 0630....I was still lazing2 in bed..thinking2..wat do i HAVE 1st class...tink2..wat ar..MENTAL BLANK..lol...den I slapped myself across my head..I was like OMG im so dumb! I dont have a class..I start late! I have a flexi! Ahah..siol! I shouldnt even have waken up at 0630!..So lazed around in bed till 0730..was hoping dat mom left soon la...skali mom left at 0810! KANASAI!..I really wanted 2 play audition...DIE2 oso wan play..now cannot..cuz I had 2 pack and make my own lunch..n dat took me awhile...den mom left the 2 sinks FULL of dishes...she left saying "wash as much as u can"..KANASAI...so bo bian wash some la...left all the big ones 4 dad 2 wash wen he comes home 4 lunch break...den I had like exactly 5MINS b4 I have 2 run 2 da bus stop I didnt care...wanted to play AUDI also..LOL...ran and play awhile..LOL sanggup!!! Aha..didnt even do up my hair properly siak..it was such a mess..but I didnt care cuz all I wanted was 2 play!..lol...Hmm but gud news when I was about 2 leave skool...I was about 2 catch the bus..den I saw Andri...dis kid dat I used 2 help tutor...hmmm she leaves near my house...and her dad works at the same work place as my dad...I asked how was she going home..she said her dad picking her up..n it was raining sooo heavily...so I said..can I pls get a lift...I cant be fucked taking 2 buses and den walk in the rain cuz I donte have an umberella...so I reached home quite early about 1515 like dat..shiok...put my bag down..quickly shower...cuz I was wet b4 and den AUDI till 1830 juz b4 mom came home :)24/06/09Wednessdae...hmmm ytd I slept at at 12.30...hmmm den after dat woke up again at 0430...DRAGGED my ass off hoping I could finish my work...but I didnt..lol...sooo tired....only had wat 3 hrs of sleep!?!?..And I was late..luckily dad offered 2 send me 2 skool...plus it was RAINinG HEAVILY AGAIN...hmm didnt even have time 2 drink my coffee..so I put it in a take away mug...n in my bag...and guess wat in the car on the way wen dad sent me..it SPILLED in the car ALL OVER MY BAG..ahhhhh I stopped at the bus stop and saw my bad was filled with COFFEE...books all kena..aiyo...wat a bad day..den caught the bus and walked in the rain...Reached skool...drenced!...and books with coffee stains..haiz but my lao shi (teacher) was kind enuf 2 lend me a spare cloth 2 clean my books...hmmm...I really tink wednessdayz are official bad dayz 4 me..:( Anyway skool was fine and boring...lol...and on the way home Andri's dad sent me home again...shiok2 hahah..so reached home at 1530...got home chucked my bag and change clothes...super quickly den audi ahaha...2dae shiok...played wif my cpl...serpouse baby..and we finally found a song where we can both sync alot with...I tried b4 in single..I chained (perfect) x8 den again x10 den I played it wif him did x5 and lots of mini x2's..ahaha...we played the song 1st time 6 hearts I tink 2nd time 10 hearts :] major accomplishment 4 us..ahaha..well 4 him larhs..ahah
20/06/09Hmmm saturdae ha...I couldnt really get up but my kor(brother) woke me up b4 he left for work which was like at 0730 cuz I was supposed 2 have a gym appointment/tour thing...but I 4got wat time it was so pfft...I called 2 ask but the lady wasbt there so I gave up..got up and had a shower and breakfast anyway den sum1 rang and den mom said sum1's comming...haha...eee..it was mom's fwend from singapore..kanasai have 2 layan them la..haiz..make drinks for them n stuff. Mom's fwend had a daughter...but she was so stuck UP..ew..so I decided nvm I wont talk 2 her..den ya dey went home and my parents decided 2 go out grocery shopping..it was raining SOOO HEAVILY and I was playing audition in front of the heater..haha..nice and warm baby...lol...At 1st I was really angry cuz I was jelez my audi sis came and bully me...she's hell pro..so I said I was gona go emo...but she came afterwards looking 4 me using her Boi character...and we played couple (its the only mode i ever like playing :P) haha...den me n her considered both PRO la...haha she's way proer tho..n yeah...there was this couple married...they were quite a challage...we lost the 1st few then our main goal was to beat them..which we did in the end..they lost like 5 matches 2 one...haha...YEAH..we rocked..it really set me in a gud mood.hahaIn da afternoon dad was having a suicidal mood again..cuz mom wanted 2 invite more people over and he was sick n tired of enertaining guests..haha...he was revaging in the car we went 2 da shops togetha...he said "papa doa papa cepat mati?!..sick and tired!...of all of eu..."..lol...very typical of him la..he does dat every now and again xDHmm at nite I didnt care audi AGAIN...lol all the way till 0200?!..And den I was waiting 4 doremon waiting and waiting hoping he'd come...unfortunately he didnt so I was really sad...so I went 2 sleep...tried 2 but I couldnt cuz it was raining..AHHH...called every1 but they were asleep..T___T bro's in KL! KANASAI la..so I called Amad knowing he's still be awake...complaining 2 him I cant sleep...ahah..he pei me till 4am?!..lol half confessing his apparent liking 2 me...LOL...meh...hu dosent like me these dayz...21/06/09Hmm sundae...got up at like 11PM! So late siak...and dat oso my mom wasnt angry but gud la cuz she was on the fone anyway..she ar 24/7 on the fone..ahaha...anyway...I gave her the reason...I was like "hmm I ady got up at like 4 am anyway 2 read den like slept back dats y I got up late..." LOL it worked she juz nodded n yeah..LOL den straight away made coffee and didnt have breakfast..den I went 2 do my assignment while msn-ing and listening 2 audi songs on imeem to practice my perfection..sad rite?!?!?..ahaha...well yeah was doing dat 4 almost the whole dae till 1830?!?!...And also helping mom in buts n pieces...how annoying she goes "ADIKKK...tolong angkat kan ni(pls help me carry this)...ADIKKKK cuci kan pinggan! (pls help me wash the dishes!)..Kanasai! TINK wat im ur fucking MAID izzit?!...haiz...But wehad guest over at our house in the evening so I stopped doing my work and played Audi till 2130...ahaha...it was lagging HELL BAD cuz it was raining...was loosing all the way...but meh..sis(_raikiri) was there...but she was also lagging...kanasai...wat a bad day?!..ahahah Den I had a VERY late dinner then went in bed to read....read all the way till 2300?!..yeah den I got sleepy tinking about doremon..ahaha..n decided to sleep xD22/06/09Mondae...Eeee 1st dae back from skool like sooo OMG rite?!?!?...LOL1st session was Health Studies..haiz..LOL thank god it was just listening 2 people's presentation...ours is on fridae xD...LOL...well my grp's la..aaha...I juz died sleeping xD2nd session was maths...got a new assignment...we're going on a HOLIDAY...have 15k to spend and we have 2 go to 3 countries...will be doing it with Joyance..hehe...Other den dat we juz wasted time and yeah..lol..3rd session was Childcare...faked my way through in not handing in our assignment again! IM A PRO LA..lol....anwyay had lots of work 2 catch up on cuz I was away for almost the whole week last week so yeah..and we're doing group work as well :/4th session was Outdoor ed...hmmm we did TEAM building skills...hmm boring la actually we had 2 partner up and use a compass n den ya do dis little activity xD booring lahs...hmmm Last session was ENGLISH....eee boring..lol we actually started on the next thing already...reading a new book...damn kanasai wan..lol!!....its like a play and I was given a part 2 read...lol IM a drug addict chick..ahaha..and apparently im in love wif some guy...ahaha..cute2...thank god it was all over soon enuf..ahaha...On the way home I was at the shops..more like the banks...I knew the banker lady cuz usually she on another shopping centre..but now she there...she saw me holding the 2nd book of twilingt n she was like "OMG i cried..."...lol den I went 2 another shop...another random approached me n said "OMG i cant wait 2 buy the book...I've watched the movie 1 mill times liao"..LOL...sooo many people said sth 2 me..IM FAMOUS xD
Last week! Hmm last week rite the whole of the week I ponteng skool (skipped skool)...I was sick well 4 only like 2 dayz but the other 2 well juz wanted 2 play Auditionsea..HAHA..lol n had 2 fake my sickness..but my dad dosent care anyway!..haha so im fine! lol...shiok only stay home siak...lol...19/06/09Hmm 1st day back from skool....1st session was technical drawing with Ashwin...Hmm 1st question from him was like "EH WHERE WERE U?..Babi flu ar?!..."..I was like kanasai...(sum swear word in chinese)..lol..yeah...but other den dat I was hell pissed off cuz my computer next 2 Ashwin was taken away?!...tidaaakkkk(noooo) I had 2 like sit opposite which is like so hard wen we want 2 converse. Aiyoo......boring T___T2nd session was comp ed class..also with ashwin..where we sit down in like groups and the lao shi (teachers) dictate us about the future and wat we COULD do in the near future after skool. Hmmm boring...mainly its just about making the right choices after skool dats all.3rd session was Outdoor Education...simple note taking class..preety straight 4ward and a lil boring but once we were finished we had free time...so I was happy :)4th session was Health Studies...hmm we were discussing in my group we are going 2 do a presentation soon in week 10 which is in like 2 wks time...and I was away the whole week so had lots to catch up la..but after that it was just free relax and lepak..haha...Hmmm during lunch Joyance taut me a new chinese word "GO IN" which is "Jing qu"..OMG its so hard as in the pronounciation of it...after 45mins I still cant say it right T___T I went insane even walking around skool practicing..haizzz..LOL..anyway.. I had a free period...decided 2 see Zhen my skool chaplin..havent visited him in a long2 time..he said he was in a meeting n he will meet me later...hmm so yeahs I went 2 da library 2 blog..lol den he came 2 da library wen he was done it was almost time 2 go home..but I stayed after skool hours 2 receive counciling! ahhh..lol he kept asking about doremon..n said "Do u tink its a gud idea?...I think u deserve a betta guy..and plus its long distant...!?!?!..." the most obvious was "In my opinion the age gap 2 far lei.." I literally was about 2 cry..hmm...but really in reality Love is boundless..it has no limits..so y should it stop me..and I tink I noe maybe I deserve better fella BUT..I donte tink other fellas deserve me..im like so imperfect in many ways...I tink me n doremon is juz fine...our equal imperfection matches each other....hmmmmm....Ouh yes got my english exam results back...it was ok la...juz pass..was lucky actually heard alot of pple failed english cuz it was hard...n shyitting myself duno wat 2 say 2 my mom cuz I noe she will be angry and alwayz demanding 4 a distinction..haiz...den I told her...I was rite!!! She as angry..hmm really wanted 2 talk 2 bro but he was away in malaysia...kanasai la...lol...well den I hid in my room ever since mom got home..juz went out 2 get water..n she was nagging den I quickly went back in 2 IGNORE the nags..haiz..den I read my TWILIGHT book till I finished it :] not bad from half way through the book till finished..hahah..proud of me :]
Den went out at about 2300?~!..lol went 2 play audition till 0400 xD..its been like a routine liao...4 dayz in a row..."LATE NITE AUDI" :P
Helloo all im back yes...ahakz..sooo sorrie lah I havent been blogging 4 like almost wat 3wks now rite?!...Yeahs...Hmmm anyway lots have happened...my mom well she came out of her operation ok...but den now dey detect further cells...soo duno...she might have 2 go 4 another operation. And I have been looking after her...irritating...do dis do that..even simple lifting she cant do...SO I have 2 do them all! KNS...but as doremon alwayz say "mak u jugak..saba je la... "(its ur own mother anyway..juz have patience)....Prob is I donte have patience at all..haha..I mean Im nort close 2 my mom so...=.="Hmm yes during her operation and 2wks after dat...my auntie came here 2 visit me n 2 help look after mom...she was "the mom of the house"...:S I donte really like her..she's so pedentic about everything..soo strict..even worse den my mom seyy..haiz...But I lived...thankfully...haha..Ouh and uhms..my lovable bro Hafiz...had 2 go back Singapore...back to his hometown where he came from... how sad...been with him for 4 yrs! He's like my everything sey...he'd do anything 4 me as visa versa la...now I feel like sth has been taken away from me since he left :( I told doremon about it..his suggestion was 2 tink about him LOL...and dat I shld actually give him my blessings instead of not letting him go...since his gona be happy with his family over there. And ofcuz la we still can contact each other daily...but the distance apart is still woa lao aye!...T____T I hope I'll be ok. HmmHmm been contacting doremon...he is ok lah..as per usual...busy n comming back at weird hours..but ape nak buat dah keje die mcm tu (wat can he do his job is already like dat)....hmmm n I proally have been pissing him off about getting his fone replaced... since he lost his fone..cuz I find it irritating...and heartbreaking with him FONELESS...I mean god even if I donte have mine 4 a sec...id die siaalll...hmmm But he proclaims to be saving up 4 a fone dat he wants...I told him 2 get a cheap 2nd hand fone..but he claims 2 have no money haiz...and I also told him if maybe he cuts down on smoking he might have MONEY. Haiz...hu am I 2 dictate his life rite?! All I can do is suggest n support. But till wen is he going 2 contact me through emails and msn?!...Maybe he can stand it not being close 2 me...but i cannot seyy..get really paranoid..Yes...I shld really stop it....Wat is wrong with me?! Haiz...Xiao..za bor!Hmmm ouh yes..I have been shopping and wasting a lot of money lately...hmm buying..soo many books...NOVELS...yes..Buku cinta (Love novels)...I tink I have 2 constantly remind myself that love in reality will never be as good as is it is in books...they are all just fantasies..nuthing more..sadly we can just fantasize....HAIZ T__T But hmm yes all my books both English and malay are all expensive...English books are mostly science fiction and fantasy books that I like..and malay books are usually love novels. Really2 going pokai lei...haiz..
woo page under construction again...lol ps I will link every1 else yet again...new era yet again :) until we meet again :)
